`[Khai]ri... Stuck

The world know not of what is ventured in troubling years of existence.
The air spoke of wisdom and courage,
however chills ran down my spine.
In which direction must I head;
In which path does destiny lies.
I need the courage to strive, give me the strength to fight.
For at this crossroads I must live; and venture though the end - alive...

Sunday, May 3, 2009

tongue tied | 1:39:00 AM

it's too often when we decide things for ourselves before the future really did show up for itself. that's when the decision made in the past seemed so wrong for the present, though we already anticipated things are gonna go the way we expected it to go.

just like the ball is round, life is full of uncertainties. for example, diseases. when we thought one was ending, a new one came which hit the world hard. people are infected and dying at a progressive rate. before we know it, as i pray at this moment that it won't, another disease might come again. that is the negativity of the future that we cannot foresee.

on the other hand, what good the future brings does give us the anxiety of living towards it. for example, a very rare opportunity comes rolling at your feet. what do you do? take it or leave it and move on? whatever choice we take, that decision in a way either benefits or proves itself useless for us in days/months/years to come. the anxiety of it is, we want to take the opportunity because we believe strongly of the benefits it will bring us, but are very concerned of some things that might or might not happen when we decide to take it.

my point is, a good decision made now might not be good anymore in the future. as i said, we cannot foresee what's gonna happen in the days beyond today.

Dear God, i pray to you..
show me the light of Your path and lead me to the direction worth for me to live.
i need Your guidance for me to create a path of my own.
whatever decisions i may make, i wish all to be happy.
please give me the strength to assure the people i love that i won't be a different person no matter which path i choose.
i love them much. very, very much..

i have some news. but it won't be out that soon.
i got some personal issues to clear out first. beginning with myself.
i got some things to settle with me. rough things. nasty things.
then, we'll take one step at a time.

anyways, will be a match tomorrow at Marsiling Sec Sch.
Admiralz FC vs Y Homeless FC
they're at the top of the table. we're gonna bring them down.

till then, enjoy your last weekend. Take care people.

Labels: decisions.